At a recent function, it’s inevitable at such occasion that people query about you and your dating life, single, married or just gay … that sort of ‘interrogation’.
I myself usually stay clear of such topics when conversing with the guests in attendance, as it would only then highlight at my own inability to find a girlfriend, or maintaining a stable relationship these past five years.
And no scandals are not considered relationships. I don’t want that anymore … erm maybe perhaps it’s alright if its once in a while, haha :p
But it’s unavoidable lah, more than likely I do have to face the inevitable question and I would just respond with a short reply of “Still Looking” accompanied by a forced grinny toothy smile, and immediately excusing myself with a fake phone call.
Faced with my own failure in finding that special someone, and grown weary of bad dates all these years, I’ve been focusing all my time on my work and hobbies which gives me a more tangible and gratifying results.
As Hugh Grant playing Will in “About A Boy” movie best describes it,
“I find the key is to think of a day as units of time, each unit consisting of no more than thirty minutes.
Full hours can be a little bit intimidating and most activities take about half an hour.
Taking a bath: one unit, watching countdown: one unit, web-based research: two units, exercising: three units, having my hair carefully disheveled: four units.
It’s amazing how the day fills up, and I often wonder, to be absolutely honest, if I’d ever have time for a job; how do people cram them in?”
My life is much easier for me not thinking about girls and relationship if all my time is filled with activities. The moment I get up from bed, it’s filled with schedules, errands to run, deadlines to be met … and none for dating or getting to know new people.
I’m satisfied with my small circle of friends in fact. I wouldn’t say I would call myself a hermit, I’m still sociable with outings and such, but I prefer not to add any more on my plate ya know.
I don’t think I’m that bad looking, nor am I a sloppy-joe. I’m presentable, fit, healthy, polite, soft-spoken, courteous, has a slight OCD issue of being a neat-freak, but I can tone it down, and I’m all game for anything in bed as I like to please my partner.
Of course I would want to get a gurl one day and have babies with her, but for now, I’m just jaded.
I’m this close to signing-up to a matchmaking program in fact, let them deal with the crap of finding me a suitable match for Uncle Sha. I’m still thinking about it however …
