Hi
Don’t worry, this is not an open blog, its just you reading it.
I’m writing to you now as I’m ready to be your friend.
I want to now, as I don’t want to totally lose you.
I hope you still regard me as your friend.
I don’t want this to end bitterly.
I know its going to be hard and awkward for me to become JUST friends, as I still harbor feelings for you but I’ve to come to accept to terms that I cant force love when its just one-sided … but I want to try to be friends, hope you’ll allow that
Yes, I was angry, disappointed and pissed at how you treated me.
You were harsh, tough and mean when you dealt your decision.
And Yes I was selfish as I wanted this to work again but all that matters now is the matter of the heart.
Like you said, I’m following my friends and your advice to move on.
I’m letting go now, when I know your heart is elsewhere.
I’m finally coming to terms with reality.
I was still having hope about us but its dissolving now
Even when you was being mean & harsh to me, I still can see no wrong in you but I realise I’m no longer your Baby Dragon in your eyes, no matter how much I still want to hold on!
Holding on is making me more miserable.
But I’ve not regretted of all the things I’ve done for you.
Whether its tough, raining, tiring, embarrassing or how freaky it is, I did it all out of love for you.
I’m just guilty of loving you too much.
I can still recall searching high & low for Spore Idol finals tickets, but it was worth it as I felt, it brought us closer.
We had some good times right. I’m not saying sorry for all the things I’ve did, as I’m doing it I know how, its not that I don’t care.
But yes I’ve regrets, I wish I could have done more or things differently.
But thats all in the past. I’m moving on
I didn’t want to believe when my friend spotted you, East Coast i think, with someone.
But your recent blog entry just confirms that.
I was asking myself, How could someone moved on so fast.
Well I couldn’t.
Hell yeah I was jealous & gutted, as you’re going out having a good time and getting intimate with another person.
But then again, you’re not the type of person who jumps into relationship unless you sees something in that person.
Maybe that spark of chemistry or the person is able to express himself to your needs better for which I unable.
Well the bottomline is, I’m happy for you, I’m not bitter
I also am not trying to manipulate you with Morrie’s word.
I was just exploring new things.
Things I’ve missed out previously.
I’ll still stick by my words … You’re my Morrie!
I’m taking things with an open mind now
Well take care and please keep in touch!
I’ll always be here for you
regards sha
