I’m glad Dear has started climbing again.
It has shown in her demeanor thats shes more upbeat.
Now that her injured ankle has swelled down and is getting better, she’s like a happy little puppy on steroids, pumped and all excited at every climb session
She’s going through a tough time of missing home, ayra and family now, plus her recent fall which twisted her ankle; it must be frustrating for her.
The fall grounded her and practically restricted her from climbing.
Imagine not being able to do something that you really love, and for such joy to be taken away instantly … well won’t you feel frustrated.
In a way, I know how she partly feels, as I myself had such fall before and its really discouraging
Well for me, I don’t mind being the punching bag for all her frustration, thats what partners are there for right … but at times, it does get to me; hey I’m no superman, mind you.
So sorry eh Dear if I acted insensitive or bastard you at times.
Now I’m trying my best to be there for the missus, without smothering her or being too overpossesive-ness.
She needs her space.
Lately I’ve been trying to cheer her up, to the best of my know-how and ability.
Though no matter how meaningful or freaky my effort may be, I do hope the missus feels better
Our honeymoon period is kinda over and recently I’ve come to realise, I have to step-up to the plate to get our relationship to the next level.
I really treasure our relationship and I wouldn’t to be the jackass who ruins it.
Well I usually tend to be pessimistic, self deprecating and sometimes paranoid.
Also at times, I would take her for granted.
I guess thats where my downfall is.
These days I’ve to keep telling myself not to self-destruct and each day, it gets a little easier.
To me, if you’re able to stick it out when things are at their worst, the outcome will be even more sweeter.
I have to keep on giving without asking anything in return.
I have to make good of myself for the missus, as I did with my late mum; the very promise I made, on her last days.
This is by far the longest relationship I’ve had so far and by no means am I comparing or saying my previous relationship was less special, but each & every relationship I had, is unique and only such from each relationship itself, it brought a certain maturity in me.
Well this entry is about telling the missus that I love her and appreciate my sayang.
I love you dear
