I’m only happy with regard to one area of my life, my studies is going on well (the fact that I get to sit around in the poly library study or reading thick engineering notes manuals for god knows why) and I’m beginning to appreciate those things that just aren’t there any more.
I know I don’t live alone, by any means.
But in the past few weeks I’ve been developing the kind of loneliness.
I miss moaning to my Mum and seeing her thoroughly disgusting expressions of disbelief and she would later chuckled and give me a reassuring smile … i miss that smile, i miss her
The other night i dreamt of mum, she was crying and i wiped away her tears. I spoke to her (for which i cant recall) and it felt really really good talking to her again, even though its just a dream.
I woke up twice that night recalling the dream and my thoughts would stray until i return to doze off again
Hmmzz … On the training front, I’ve started to train again and i just cant bring myself to train with the rest. I just want and need to train alone. If you bros see this, i hope you’ll understand.
Its something I’ve got to do except on weekends where I’ll come down to train under WL. No i wont leave the club but i just need some time-out
I’m not that much of a happy person at the moment. And I try not to moan all the time. I really do. Its just … difficult sometimes
I’m hoping things will jump back up and bite me on the arse at the end of this school term. By “things” I mean happiness in general.
Don’t get me wrong, I have “things” to look forward to .. just bear with me people
