I’m not talking about the loneliness of emo relationship and such but I just can’t help feel alone when I’m here in NTU. That kind of seclusion
Not sounding too whiny, well I’m not alone-alone if you know what I mean
Let me explain, the thing is, I’m usually the only Malay around in my lecture, or the only Melayu in my tutorial group, or having lunch at the canteen with my friends
Not a single face of Melayu to be seen among the crowd
I do mix around with my other non-Malay friends, but it’s different when you’re talking, joking or confiding with someone that not of your same ethnicity.
The hit-and-miss of ‘insider’ jokes or they just can’t relate to you.
You just need to be a Melayu mat or minah to understand it … that kind
The only Malay friend I had in NTU, well she has graduated. She was from my polytechnic batch, and when she left to join the work-force, well I’m all here alone now
There are of course Malays here in NTU and the numbers are increasing encouragingly but it’s still a major Cheena-Uni
I did observed some Melayu undergrads here, but it just doesn’t feel right
I dunno lah, it’s just the age-gap perhaps, or maybe they’re not from my batch, although some of the Melayu girls are cute, too bad there are not more of them around here.
They all look very young. Very very young I might add.
Right after JC, so that makes them 19 years old?
As for approaching the Melayu chicks here, it just feels so so so wrong lah. I’m like a decade older than them! Haha
I genuinely want to get to know more Malays, girls and boys alike. Hey I really am, plus my Melayu is getting rusty these days
Anyway I guess I got into the wrong Uni … Anyone from NUS?
Every time I trained there, oooh boy, I’m always excited. I never wanted to leave the place
And why? Not wanting to sound like a cheekopek, there’s much more plenty of Melayu chicks at NUS! Well that’s just my observation
But these days, I’ve settled to ogle from a distance only lah, when I enter the workforce I’ll then meet chicks that’s more appropriate of my age, and that would make it less ‘pedophiles’ compared to now
I’ve had my share of getting to know girls of that age (Disclaimer: not that young ah!) and most of the time it didn’t quite work out. I can sense a stark difference,for example dating a 20 year old versus a chick aged 25
Yes I know, yada yada that age doesn’t matter when it comes to relationships, but it does however, would make me feel a whole lot better about the whole thing
Aaahhh anyway NTU sucks big-time
Well I think I’m just being horny with this entry. So sue me for being a guy
It sucks being the token Malay. I know how you feel. Call me racist or what ever but because I’ve been the token Malay for so long, I don’t interact, or even like to interact, with people of my own race that much. Maybe that’s just me, I can’t seem to relate to them as much anymore.
well i’m sure it’s not that bad
let’s us mingle more then :)
so which age group chick you prefer? under 21 or above 21?
for now, above 21
abeh yang 21 cun cun?
well why not :)
sha! i survived my 3 years in poly being the only malay in class! worse, actually not really, my class didn’t change for the whole 3 years! so imagine being cheena-fied for so long…
but i’ve learnt to adapt lah though i admit i don’t quite prefer being in the midst of chinese-driven convos which my friends had to translate here and there for me. so everytime there is a (chinese) joke, by the time I understand it fully, I will sound like a crazy guy laughing all alone.
but i sure miss the “sial je kau ni” and “tau tak pe” kinda mat-talk whenever i’m with my classmates. oh wells…
always look on the bright side of life *whistles*
well at least you get an whole new ‘experience’ being in a cheena-fied group. kinda diff right
well expect some sort of the same thing once u’re in uni bro
Yah I think NUS is now the bomb for hawt chicks lah. Aiyah, finish up your degree and then take your Masters kat NUS lor :-P
ooh that’s an idea :)
sha oh sha..
i think its cool to be different anywhere we go. or even the odd one out. if you become too friendly, people might think you’re a joke, and if you’re too quiet, a loner, then people think you’re a psycho, but who cares.
most importantly, when you come back, you update your blog and entertain us. you do have your Blogging friends like me around still after decades ahahaha.
the bottom line is… we will always be alone at some point. to me my best friend will always be my every cigarette i take from the box. Through rain or shine, it will always be there with me. even in my lungs haha. am i promoting cigarettes?
no. what i am saying is, its singapura consists of 70% chinese so what can we do. we are like the blacks in america. every 6 chinese theres 1 malay. and either he is in jail or stuck at a corner. eventhough im not malay i still look like one. and im proud you are proud to be one.
all hail sha! uncle sha!
but being too alone most of the time is not good la. well just some ranting here
yeah, how long have we known each other eh? a decade? are you for sure? wow
well you look more of a malay to me than anything else
Eh bro gimme your hp number lah, hahaha i stay near NTU, we can have supper/or eat if you’re that bored. And prolly go slack around.
I like eating. Munch munch!
well i’m without handphone now bro ..i blogged abt this twice earlier
yeah catching up with you one day would sounds great
hahah, kesian shah. dah dua kali dia blog, tetap ppl still ask. is it because your line got terminated or is it because you dont have any mobile?
alamak yanni pon satu lah…
i’m not sure
either my sim card or hp rosak
i too busy to handle that now, maybe during hols :)
Get a handphone lah! You’ve got the means to do so, why the delay? Mesti banyak peminat niiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii
i’m in my malas nak dapat new hp or sim-card mood la now :)
Wow..this brings back memories. When I was in primary school, I was the only Malay student in the school. I swear to God. It was awkward as hell..but I got used to it eventually. Things were different in secondary school though. I was lucky enough to be enrolled in a school where there was equality in terms of the students’ race.
Now, I’m facing the exact same thing I experienced in primary school all over again. Chinese students constitute up to 94% of my uni. It’s not that I can’t blend in (I can converse in Mandarin and Hokkien since I went to a Chinese school) and all that. But like you said, it just doesn’t feel the same. I know exactly what you mean.
..and oh, and let me just say (since this is my first time here), you have a pretty interesting blog. You can thank BlogRush for directing me here. xD
thanks for sharing your experience, well at least you get to learn another language from it
all i learn are the cheena bad words, haha
thanks for finding my blog over here :)
I truly understand what u’re talking about and how u’re feeling.. hahaha.. it came to the point that I felt so deprived.. NTU so cheena… My girls all cheena.. The moment I talk malay, they look at me as if I’m one kind of an alien and they will call me MINAH!. and how come I don’t see u in sch aye…..
well i saw you once at North Spine
I usually don’t hang ard in sch, after lectures, i’m back in my hall or training outside
hope to bump more yar :)
UNCLE shaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.. i missed u.. haha ok ok.. more like i been anti-everything ..freaking head down butt up wid assignments and exam prep.. the final stretch so to speak… then its holz all the way.. woOOoo..
as for the whole malay thing.. i guess my situation is slightly different, but like u say.. it is somewhat lonely.. but for me ive always been the only malay since kindy to primary to high to uni.. and even from my street to my suburb, and yeah you do adapt to the point that you even lose ure identity, but the best thing abt it is, when you do spot another malay.. its like AAAAAAHHHHH he/she is like me.. and by god.. its so refreshing to be reminded that, whatever it is, you are uniquely different from the rest, use it to ure advantage;)
i think i can’t really relate to your situation, you’re like in another continent, that’s like woah. i think i would miss my supper meals and going to 24hr store. well maybe you could bump into a potential malay guy-guy there?
well hang in there babe, exams ending soon. holidays beckons!!
ur roomie is a ‘mat’ wat. haha
he’s your ‘mat’ … not mine, haha
don’t get kinky on me dei
I also hv my share of being ‘token Malay’. De only Malay in class when i ws in Primary 4 and 5. De only Malay in my class during my SP days…de only Malay employee in my old department when i first started my newest job (before they transferred me to the new dept which has other Malays also).
But then…hehehe…DUHHH…wat do u expect…dis is SINGAPORE. Plus, especially in places such as NANYANG uni somemore…Hmm didnt u apply to enter NUS or sumtin? But nvm, i agree wth katak…u can still apply to do Masters in NUS…
well i guess i should have expected this hur, gotta take it like a man then :)
i did applied NUS, they rejected me … haiz
well well well.. what a stark contrast man dudee.. here in NTU english, banyak minahh minah melayu, tapi mat melayu satu ekor ajer. but main point is, i get to lepak with the minahs and dont really feel left out.
HAHA. minah maner ajer yang ko ngah eye-ing ni? HAHAHA.
NTU english? you mean NIE side eh
i know there’s plenty of Melayu ladies over there but i don’t frequent NIE. not my faculty la
MAMAT! im not in NIE la. im in NTU Humanties & Social Sciences, taking English literature as my direct honours degree. HAHAHA. mcm-mcm la ko ni..
anws, talking about NIE, yeps, there’s alot of malay peeps over there (:
you’re under which faculty?
i don’t go to south spine often
north spine alot of eng geeks and ‘chinatown’
*hugs*
Hang in there Sha, I was really really lonely in my uni as well, something of a social outcast, all the way up until my senior year. I still felt really alone in school, most of the time, but now that I’ve graduated (just did so last week btw :P ), suddenly it all doesn’t matter any more. You gotta focus on the things in your life that are going well, and put your energy into that. Someday you’ll be out of uni after all.
People don’t admire you automatically, you just gotta earn your admiration. If they don’t admire you because you’re super popular, or have slick-shameless charm, well I think you have tons of admirers online, where you’re being really productive and impressive.
woohoo congrats!! when’s your convo? well you worked hard, party hard during grad day man!
well i’m putting my energy on the things after uni in-fact
i’m not young anymore, my priorities have changed :)
Yo sha. I just cant resist but commenting to this post lah. I guess you are right bro. NUS more chicks lah dude and anyway I think the Malay population there is also bigger. I was from the Arts Fac and there are new faces that we guys at Arts stumbled upon when we are in Science Fac for example. But anyway, the gals in NUS are quite a close knitted group especially if they are from the same society or something. About the age gap. I think I have to agree lah, a gal at 20 is definitely different from one 25 or above. Maturity sets in at different stages i guess.
Ok shs take are man!
well i bet you’ve plenty of stories from there
hows your blog and ‘business’ coming alone? hope its doing fine
Yah when I went there for a course at NTU, and my fren wanted to “cuci mata”. But sadly got limited Mats there =P
well next time go to NIE or NUS
NTU side, no-hoper :)
i TOTALLY agree wif u bro.. i am such a living exmple.. haizz
mats here are limited edition. if u come by a mat.. tads ur lucky day.
hahhahaha~
anyway, good luck wif ur paper bro!!
i left 3 more to go.. woohooo~
i’ve six more to go!! uurgghh
have fun mugging bro
i alwys tot u gt BERLAMBAK mly frens in NTU…
no my dear, i’ve no malay frens as of now
hw come?
all e mly gals/boys in ntu da grad ker?
bt u b graduain nxt yt kn????
its ok, u gt lots of mly frens here in bloggin wrld…
n im one of thm….
luki u..
:)
in my faculty, the malays boy are very minority
my batch has graduated, left me, i didn’t make frens wif the new batch, don’t want to la
yeah glad i’ve plenty of online peeps
i find ur old blog no more yourself .. keep on blogging yar
stil am bloggin..
sori 4gt to update u….
tis my nw blog>>http://nadinako.blogspot.com
i no longer e mysterious & anom blogger..
btw, up to u to link mea s lysa, orway2fall or nadinako…
bt i rather b knwn as nadinako nw tat i wan to she & close e chapter on Lysa@way2fall…
n, wen u do open ure nw blog[] one u say is private & passwrd protected], dun 4gt to update me kays?
if its okay,,
no pressure
:)
Elooo … good to know you’re still blogging. Glad finally able to put a face to your name
I’ve added you to my links too :)
wth..i cant seem to stop meeting malay girls here at ntu! haha!
im at NIE anyway, saw u once at the western stall…reading the back of ur tshirt…like wings, shut up and run then u turned around and i was like..hmm…thats the bangla fella kan?
im like hmm..just a year older than u lagik.
next time, come on down here more often, ill say hellooo..
well i don’t frequent NIE
yup that was my running club tshirt :)
I saw a mat outside hall 6… fuyooooo.. excited can! haha
wakaka, if that made you happy … wat if the guy approached you?
hey, i just stumbled upon your blog. and what a coincidence, i happen to be in the same situation as you (yes, NTU also). the situation has never bothered me… until now. after reading your post, i don’t know if i should be bothered that i’m not bothered by the fact that i have no malay friends in NTU. sigh, i know i shouldn’t have clicked on the link to this post.
i hear you bro … or sista?
well these day of age, friends are skin-color-blind
bro, bro. you make it sound like its a bad thing.
Does it sounds bad
No la, i meant Sporean’s have a diversity of friends
yes it does since blind is a negative adjective.
what you say is true but your entry seems to imply
that we have an innate need to mix with our race –
so much so that you turn into an lonely emo guy
after being isolated from them. for some reason
i don’t feel this way. say you’re in a room full
of strangers, would you naturally go and find
malays to mix with or would you simply mix with
those who are closest to you in the room even if
they are not malay? i know i would do the latter
simply because i don’t really see any difference.
i guess you are right about the skin-color-blind thing.
by the way can you remove the spam protection?
its quite annoying and i’m bad at math. besides if
any spammer really wants to spam your blog that
“protection” isn’t really going to help since
you know computers do a better job at doing arithmetic
than humans.