I finally gotten round to watch the highly acclaimed Yasmin Ahmad’s movie Sepet about a love between a Chinese boy and a Malay girl.
Yes yes call me slow poach, although I was late seeing it, I’m glad I finally did.
The movie dwell upon the topic of interracial relationship
Watching this movie kinda made me recall when I had my first crush. I think it was a crush
I was in Primary One then. I was a fiesty rough kid then but when she’s around, she literally made my knees weak lah, cair rabak. I was too afraid to sit beside her, look at her or even breathe the same air as she was.
What a wuss I was yar, still am now if I like the gurl, haha! And to top it all, the teacher allocated me to sit next to her in class. Wah piang everyday was torture for me!
She was about my height, 1.3m? I don’t know what’s normal for Primary One kid height. Hahaha … Shoulder length straight hair. Big eyes and she has this frowning face always. Maybe to scare off the little boys away, but she’s nice to me.
Quite fair, she don’t really get herself involve in outdoors or playing during recess. She wears plenty of talcum powder, everyday in the morning I’ll often see her damn white putih like a corpse!
Unlike the many Cheena kids in the class who don’t shower coming to school, she’s the only one who did. I like smelling her in the morning. She’s also the skinny type and at times during class playtime I’ll knock into her bones more often than I needed to, sometimes on purpose, keke.
I’ve never really have an issue with skin color when I’m dating someone or in a relationship. But then again, I was also too young to comprehend the interracial relationship issues we Asian have then. Growing up, you tend to form prejudices at times from all the influences around you, but I glad I’m still true to myself and open about this issue, even when I was still in Primary One then or adulthood now.
Well back to my crush flashback. Since we were the two shortest kids in the class, when lining up during assembly or moving to places as a class, there I’ll be in front of the line with her, holding her hand.
Most of the time she’s the one who will grab my hand. I was too malu embarassed to hold her lah! Muahaha … Awww can you imagine such a cute sweet sight of both us? Well not for me then!
I was terrified. Imagine a little boy, with all these feelings and urges and not knowing what it was. It was horror I tell ya! But I was also excited, that I was close next to her always. Only when I grew older and have a better understanding of crushes and love, did I finally chuckled at my hilarious reaction to this crush I had when I was in Primary One.
This went on for the rest of the following primary school year, it was such a challenge to act cool and not all mushy then.
I think that was my biggest regret, was not actually get to know her better. I let my ego get in the way and I kept her at at a distance just as classmates.
I wish I did made an effort then to keep in touch or be friends outside the classroom, but I didn’t. At times, I wonder where is she now or what path has she taken in life.
Aaaahhh sweet childhood memories. Do you have any? Do share in the comment box below ok
My readers, are you fine with interracial relationship? Would you even get involved in one? The truth is, sometimes you don’t get to choose who to love
The questions now is ‘Does color really matters in this day of age’?
Well in my opinion, although there’s more Asian parents are more open about who their sons and daughter are dating but ultimately they don’t really like their children marrying outside of their race … that’s a sad but a true fact of life.
I still believe in interracial relationship, but with its baggage comes alot of complicated issues like religion, parents blessing and culture indifference.
Well just hope I find a gadis Melayu then eh … then all will be fine and dandy