Aaaaahhh im so happy happy happy … Trista choose Ryan (from Bachelorette) & Dumb Joe choose Zora (from Joe Millionaire).
Yeaaa, love ain’t blind after all
Ryan is like the perfect person for feisty Trista, abit like yin & yang. I wish i was half the man Ryan is … haha.
As for Joe, I was so relieved he picked Zora. You can tell Sara is a gold digger, uurrghhh … hate her guts
Ok ok I’ve got too much time on my hand in fact this week. I’ve been trying hard to recover from my flu. Oh man .. i feel so much like a slob not doing any cardio or weights.
I was hoping to be ok by Friday. Hold & behold .. Friday morning i woke up to a slight sore throat yet again! … urrgh, i was so pissed off i went for a 5km run in the morning & weights training in the evening.
I cant stand it anymore. As of I’m writing this, I’m gonna sleep early tonite & hope my immune system does me proud and banish my flu to never-neverland … bleah!
A quote from Jamie, one of the bachelors from Bachelorette … he suffers from social anxiety disorder (Social Anxiety disorder also known as social phobia is generally understood as extreme fear in the face or anticipation of social interaction but seems fine when they are alone) and i can relate very much to him
When I was in high school, I was the class clown, I was an athlete.
I played baseball, basketball but at the same time I had girlfriends and everything, but I don’t think I was the most confident guy in the world
Jamie from Bachelorette
Well I went through a funky childhood . Funky not in a fun way but an unpleasant one. Not so much, my parents that I’ve problems, in fact I liked my home, but for some reason, I wasn’t well liked by anyone I went to school with.
When I say no one, I mean it
So, when I moved home and and started making friends (which was very hard) I felt better about myself … but there was always this paranoia that people didn’t really like me for who I was … like they made fun of me behind my back or something … I’m not sure what I thought, but it reflected in my self-esteem
I guess I was at fault myself as I seem to put up walls to keep people out of my emotions. I have the tendency to do that.
I am working on it, but trust is a major issue with me. I am learning to be more vulnerable and to allow others to help me instead of being so TOUGH AND STRONG all of the time. It is incredibly humbling to reach out and say, “I need help”
Good news is that I’m coping with it. I am a healthy, confident person now … but sometimes it creeps back in my life. Sometimes when I feel like a gurl doesn’t like me, I will be upset.
But I never let it show. I almost erased those two sentences, thats just how I am. I don’t want other people, any one to see that I don’t have it as all together as I seem to!
Thats why i picked up sports, setting up a blog and at times force myself take leadership role in groups. It is to face my anxiety where i will be exposed to people and comments, to quell the anxiety that arises from social situations, and to face these situations rather than avoiding them
This is extremely hard for me to want to click the submit button on this post, but I just feel that no one here will judge me or think less of me because of my weaknesses.
At least I hope not .. Gnite peeps!
