The most liberating thing I’ve done for myself is to learn to say two things in life for which I can’t before hand … “No” and “Fcuk you!”
It doesn’t pay to be nice sometimes I think. Well life sometimes comes in the form of ass-holes and losers that made you ‘change’ this way but I’ve not regretted of what I’ve become to cater or accommodate these bastards. I’m not being mean nor bad-ass but I think sometimes you need to take a stand and say ‘Hell No biatch’!
One thing about me, I’m super nice guy, really I am. I follow in the footsteps of my late mum. I loved my mum but she’s the kind that people take advantage of. Every time a person borrows money from her and when my dad question if they have returned it, she would always respond ‘never mind’ or ‘rezeki kan’. That’s mom …
Well I learn not to take ‘shite’ from anyone these days. If you’re part of my small group of friends I’ll treat you right, but if you pisses me off, I’m curtly smile in return sarcastically and ignore you.
We all learn right, the Hard Knocks of Life.
I think it’s quite reflective on my blog too. I blogged in a way such that I’m not restricted to a certain policy to adhere to. I blog what I want and when I want to. Of course you need to be careful with the religion and political entries and just do go ‘jihad’. If I do, you’ll probably find me MIA, in some cell, under the ISA act, haha!
Well just another rant … How about you peeps.
Do you find yourself ‘changed’ or a different person as you grew older?
i’m learning… yes i am….
baby steps now :-)
yes, it had always been hard for me to say no or get angry at someone. most have said that it is my weakness and people will or have taken advantage of that.
but we all learn right? i am. sad to say but… we have got to be selfish at times. life is a journey…. there’s lesson to be picked along the way.
so yes, as we grow older…. we will change. that’s a fact of life.
Kesian you, next time ppl ask you that, fwd them to me ok. I will say it for you :-p … or thats why you need to get a bf!
for the time being im taking up ur offer to say it on my behalf.
pasal bf nya part…. hahahaha! tu boleh tunggu lama-lama :p
We shall see ah :-p
as for me, i dont give face to anyone around me. cos they tend to cross the line each time i try to be nice. so heck it. let them say yanni a bad person or a mean girl. i dont care. i really fcuking dont care.. so its good to hear that you now learning to say no and fcuk you. cos some ppl are just idiots with a capital I.
You’re one tough chick miss yummy yanni
Paulo Coelho wrote this in one of his books.
”Madness is the inability to communicate your ideas. It’s as if you were in a foreign country, able to see and understand everything that’s going on around you, but incapable of explaining what you need to know or of being helped, because you don’t understand the language they speak here”
I think i am no longer a child, in that, i have real adult worries of now and future. No longer can i be a little child – carefree, without much responsibilities. And i think circumstances and experiences shape people.
Some people grow older, and wiser.
Some just dont grow spritually, despite the increasing numbers on their age.
I noticed as i grow older. I nag more, explain and write more.
In other words – loh soh. (long winded)
But you know what, people who have experienced the tumbles of life, been through the pain and hurt of life, and still remain one piece are those who have stronger faith in themselves and life. Are also those who can take the hell in life. And that makes one know when to say Yes thank you and no Fark you.
See, dah berfalsafah panjang lebar.
”That which does not kill you make you stronger” – F. Nietzsche
Anyway hor, very lengthy reply i know, sure bores people to hell. But when i skim thru your entry and saw ‘shite’ for a moment i thought you were talking about ‘shiite’ (syiahs) seh.
So funny, terkejut jap.
One more thing, that quote by Coelho was meant to illustrate how growing up for me , personally, means being incongruent, and feeling different. Like abnormal kind of different. Bla bla. (sorry stole your limelight :P)
Growing old makes me mad , and nyanyuk.
Ha.
Well I’ve always looked at life in a simple way, like Paris Hilton. Carefree but w/o the $, haha! I don’t like to over-complicate or over-analyse a matter. So your childhood is not the typical “Brady Bunch”‘s life? How indifferent is it?
The ‘madness’ is really up to you right … conceived, pondered and manifested in your head. Is it within our means to control it? Hmm so far for me, I’m in control of my ‘demons’. Hows yours?
I do agree thou on you being more nyayuk :-p … coz i am too!
no, i mean my childhood is simple.
But i think somewhere along the line, i ‘changed’ whilst growing up.
Cute, so you wanna live like a himbo ke, since Paris is a bimbo HAHAH. (jgn marah ye, joking saja)
‘Madness’ in check nowadays, maklum dah ‘matang’ kan.
But it makes me feel not normal. Sometimes kan, jeles of people who have simple thoughts, simple emotions.
But you know, usually, people who think they are mad, are in fact very aware of themselves. That’s why it is very emotionally tiring.
Yeah, sometimes i let my demons free, because i think my social circle love it when the demons are out. So funny.
I think how a person perceives the real world matters. Say for example, a runner gets a runner’s high say doing long D, then nothing much can stop him or her from continuing except the mind kan?
Demons or not, it’s all in the mind, true what you’ve said.
ooh you read p.coleho, i’m not surprised la
if you wanna talk about oppressive shiite, maybe another entry la, it’s been awhile since i posted something political related entries. Wanted to ep local politics, but I think better not get into ‘trouble’, haha. Still trying to phrase it correctly … it’s in my draft now
I think it’s normal to nag more when you grow older, maybe the guys will be less vocal but we have our own ways to nag. Just dun overnag la, defeats the purpose of getting your point across